It has been quite awhile since I have posted anything on here. I had a really cool story about my wife and I going to an Ely Young Band concert. I accidentally erased it got pissed off and said Fuck tumblr. I want to write though my punctuation fucking sucks ass. I like writing about my sexual experiences and fantasies with my wife and such. I can’t think of anything right now but I will soon. I don’t post pictures and links and shit just WORDS nothing else.

I just woke up from a nap and had the craziest fucking dream ever.
It was a wedding reception/wife’s company dinner/tweet up all in one. I renewed vows with my wife.
I met (twinkle) @schwatting. The next thing I know we are going to the “store”(we were getting stoned) airline pilots had my truck and were searching for something. Twinkle kept saying who gives a fuck we’re stoned.
We returned back to the (place).
Dinner was being served and I ran into @robfee he said he was the twitter manager and wanted for me to work for him selling life size dolls of himself.
Instantly we were eating our meal and one of you twitter girls told my wife they were going to spill their drink on me so that I would take my pants off.(You were a FREAK) she said fuck yea do it. I want his pants off too.
Then I went for a run and when I went outside I was in my front yard grass mowed bushes and trees severed to the ground. People all over the place not caring that I am leaving to go run.
I rarely remember my dreams. When I do they are only vivid for a short time unless I write it down or tell someone right away. This is all that I could remember though. #TruthfulTuesday

Things are going well between us we have bumps in the road from time to time but who doesn’t. Most of our struggles are financial which really fucking sucks. Money is the stupidest thing ever. Our 17th wedding anniversary is next saturday and we can’t even afford to piss in a pot. I want to do something special for her because every year I don’t do a fucking thing and after 16 years of nothing its getting really fucking old. I want to get her some pretty panties. I have never bought her lingerie I know what size to get her but what if she doesn’t like it or she doesn’t feel attractive in it. I’m going to find something that we would both like. I’m sick of being so god damn negative about everything. I always take the blame. None of this is going to help any of you but it is helping me to express to myself how I feel. I know that I’m the only person that can change this. I tell her she is pretty, sexy,funny, wonderful. But since I told her about my thoughts about other girls she just doesn’t believe me I guess. Idk. I’m just going to continue doing what I’m doing. And that is loving her unconditionally.

It was christmas day 2005. We were visiting friends and family in Haslet,Tx. A small hick town turned suburbs just north of Fort Worth. Thousands of houses covered the used to be fields of grain and longhorns years ago. A friend of mine was currently working for TMS at the time and had borrowed some chairs and tables as he did have nearly 30 house guest for this festive event. As soon as we were finished eating this wonderful meal. We needed to pick up the tables cause well honestly there just wasn’t enough room for five tables and a shit ton of chairs.
We got all the chairs and tables loaded into the truck and my buddy and I were more than willing to take them back to TMS. This was our golden opportunity to smoke some of this good ass fucking christmas bud. It was delicious. We had it in a medium tupperware bowl. The track wasn’t far so only having enough time to roll one and not smoke it yet kinda sucked. We unloaded all the tables and chairs and put them in the employee condo.
So we get back in the truck and its time to fire it up! We head back to his house having to continue trying to light this sticky ass joint so many times we were back at the house in to time. We drove the neighbor hood for a bit but got paranoid. So we turned on one of the main roads Bonds Ranch towards Hicks Field a two strip airport with a few hundred hangers. Most of the people have small cesna’s and we see airplanes flying around real low all the time no biggie.
Today was different there was this really cool bright yellow byplane (it had double wings) there were red markings on there also it was pretty bad ass. As it swooped across the sky and began to go straight up in the air right in front of us. It was like our own little stunt show.
The plan began to straighten out and continue his journey across the gorgeous land. I was still watching the plane out the window as we kept driving and it stalled in mid air. Instantly I thought sweet this guy is going to do some tricks and shit. The plane was tumbling back and forth end over end like a small childs toy dropped from the top of the shower curtain and into the bathtub. As the plane got closer my heart would beat faster. To this day I don’t understand how it happened but that airplane smashed into the ground not even 200 yards from were I was the truck and plane stopped at the same time.
I jumped out of the truck sprinting towards the ruble it looked like lego’s or some kind of a toy plane. As I got closer I was constantly asking myself how am I going to help. I faint at the site of a needle. Passed out when I got my vasectomy. Passed out when my wife got an epidural. I reached the ruble first. Fuel spewing everywhere and the pilot looking to be alive moaning I jumped on top of the wreckage and began to figure out how these straps worked it was something I knew nothing about.
At this point which was probably 1 or 2 minutes seemed like an hour there were 20 or 30 people around and this man was still stuck his leg was nearly severed with the bone sticking out wedged under sheet metal. The passenger which looked to be 70 yrs old was located in the front of the aircraft with a battery in his lap twisting half of his hand off.
I took charge and control of the situation first getting everyone away from the wreckage before we all die from an explosion. Managed to get the fuel to stop showering everyone un buckled the pilot with the help of my buddy another man and the son of the pilot we pulled him out.
By know the fire and rescue guys have arrived. I looked that man in his eyes and told him he was going to be ok. I turned around asked a fireman for some water to wash the fuel and battery acid off of my hands. We didn’t smoke the rest of the joint! #TruthfulTuesday

@MistookMistake posted all of these tweets about 24 hours ago it brought me to tears of course. So I copied and pasted them here for whoever didn’t see it I hope that you will read all of it.

My friends, after a lot of consideration, I’ve decided to return to Twitter. This time though, for something else: awareness. It’s been…..a long term goal of mine has been to try and increase awareness about a disease very close to my heart, Wegener’s Granulomatosis..’ve done the “funny thing” for a while but it isn’t what I should be focusing on. I am now going to dedicate this page to my life……and surviving a rare disease each day of my life. I also want to now dedicate this page to bringing awareness, knowledge, and support……to others in need. I know some of you, maybe most of you, will unfollow. That is okay but I ask that you don’t so we can create……awareness. Such is life though and choices (like mine) shall be made. I will occasionally post some funny but I just want to offer…love, advice, and support to all. Wegener’s Granulomatosis (even Vasculitis) in general does not have an outstanding, formal Twitter……page so who knows, this may turn out to be the first. I’ll still “star” your tweets that offer humor and light to those in need of it……but I have to make this change permanent. Please stick around, my friends, because just one person can make a difference. Be well……..my funny friends and “keep on tweetin’ on.” Love, MM

I’m not gonna lie. The past 17 years with her have not been easy. She always makes the best of the worst situations. I on the other hand tend to be the most negative (realistic) person ever. Anyway we are still going to the gym and we are seeing results. I can see her stomach getting flatter and her legs taking shape. She is attractive. I want her and only her. If a knockout model type walked up to me today and said anything flirtatious to me the only words from my mouth would be how much I love my wife. Unconditional love is very hard to find. In fact you can not find it you have to make it. A successful marriage takes two people to sacrifice everything for the other if you’re not willing to give up everything for the other it will never be successful (everything). Today she is sick it hurts me inside knowing she is in pain. This my friend is a good sign. I have not always felt this way with her and now that I do the pain gradually turns to tears for her . If you’re in a struggling relationship and you don’t want to lose that special someone. You better fight your ass off to keep it. There is no better feeling than loving the one you’re with. You can tell them that you love them 1000 times a day but if you don’t show them how much you love them everyday you might as well never utter those three words again. P.S. I don’t expect for any of this to be grammatically correct I’m not the most intelligent person, but I do know how to express my feelings towards my incredible wife.

I really don’t have much to say except that I love her more today than I have ever loved anything in my life including the day our first was born the love I have for her is undying and it feels so good I want to scream it out for everyone to hear. I hope that one day every person in this world has what we have together. True Love

As most of you know our girls were in arkansas for the last week. My wife and I needed this more than we thought and we took advantage of every second that we had together. I really don’t have much to say other than. I fell in love with the woman I married 17 years ago and it feels great. When I see her smile and laugh it is so fucking exhilarating. I am one happy guy right now!

We made a few steps back yesterday. Only because I’m an inconsiderate ass hole and of coarse it was over something stupid as fuck! You guessed it none other than twitter. I swear that shit is going to fucking ruin us. We both started back a little more than three weeks ago we gained a shit ton of followers in just a few days. Well when we started the first time a year ago I was funny and was able to gain followers pretty quick getting Totd’s and gaining rock star status before I quit and she was jealous didn’t think she was funny and I would just encourage her to stick with it I knew she was funny I have been with her long enough to know she is fucking hilarious. As her twitter grew slowly mine grew fast and furiously. Now that we have come back the tables have turned and now she is the rock star and I’m just a stupid guy tweeting stupid shit. We have learned a lot from each other over the years I happen to be humorous and she is very intelligent. I have learned a lot of words that I had no fucking clue what they meant until I met her. I do know if I can gain anything at all from this is that I need to think about what I say to her before I say it I can easily hurt her feelings and not even realize it. I love her there is no doubt about it. And I will fight to the death for her. I’m not going to proof read this and it may not make a damn bit of since but I just wanted to type some shit in hopes that I can not be so fucking jealous of my wife actually enjoying herself and getting the recognition that she so deserves there are only a few people that will read this and I believe all of you follow both of us on twitter you may not see me on there for awhile if I have something witty,funny or just stupid shit she will tweet it.

Well it has been a few days since my last update. We have been working out regularly for three weeks now. Saturday morning we went to the Y and the wife and little one joined in on a yoga class and the oldest and I lifted weights and did some cardio she biked 2.5 miles and I ran a 5k. We feel so much better about ourselves since we have been going. We have also been swimming a lot more. As far as our relationship goes I am attracted to her more and more every day seeing her workout and trying to make a difference really turns me on. Although the whole twitter thing has really gotten out of hand we both just spend to much time on there not just tweeting but between favstar and reading tweets keeping up with followers is just ridiculous. That time we spend on twitter should be used for the girls they deserve better and we deserve better for ourselves. We haven’t been drinking alcohol either and I think that may be why we are tweeting even more now. We are addicts and we know it. Our next counseling appointment isn’t until the 7th and we are going out of town this weekend and leaving the girls in arkansas for the week with their grandparents this is going to be good for us at this time we can spend quality time with each other and not have to worry about the girls it should be good. Thanks again for listening to me.